Sober

Ever got that feeling where you are just sick of everything sometimes that you look in the mirror and wonder why and question again and again that this is not you who u really want to be, u just want to be you but you can’t. Everythings is just so hectic and so clockwork and so "sick off" that you do not know what to  do and u freak out for no reason. Thats me STEFANIE still sober

And I don’t know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing’s real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I’ve been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me
Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it’s never really over
And I don’t know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won’t worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time
Three months and I’m still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
[Sober lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
It’s never really over, no
Wake up
Three months and I’m still standing here
Three months and I’m getting better yeah
Three months and I still am
Three months and it’s still harder now
Three months I’ve been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months
Three months and I’m still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up
Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

Prediction

Fancy, I was like taking photos of something meaningful in my room, yes my hidey hole Exaggerates*

That was a reminder i put up like 2 weeks before the mock exam and started mugging.

I guess it will be full with loads of post its I stick up notes from my friends like best wishes and good luck etc from AL, WKw and cards like birthday cards as well. My wall is a mess* but a meaningfull one. This is the better wall compared to facebook. Gosh, there might be a huge mindmap of erythropoeisis next. or something bigger like the brain – encenphalon

There are like postcards stuck up on the wall as well and this is one of them :

I certainly do not

Initiative, I do have it, But its wasted. I need MORE motivation! I should not and i repeat stop watching ONLINE MOVIES. GRRR.

Target weight (if possible) to have a good BMI just over 18 the range will be 48kgs.

And Less Carbs But Maybe not haha Fat is BEAUTIFUL

More Mugging + Exercising & Less Watching

Ms. Dell should scold me because i mumble and she cant understand a word im saying LOL. I have given up, Stop Listening Ms DELL

Chasing Pavements – Adele

I like the choreography, the pavements So romantic

I’ve made up my mind,
Don’t need to think it over,
if I’m wrong I am right,
Don’t need to look no further,
This ain’t lust,
i know this is love but,
If i tell the world,
I’ll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And thats exactly what i need to do,
If i’m in love with you,
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
I’d build myself up,
[Chasing Pavements lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

Home : Michael Buble

This Song means so much to me, so much

Dedicated to : Family, Friends back home and friends here missing home

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Tech- No

Well, Weekend is here WHOOPIE.

Well, my com seems to die* every 2 weeks, so i had to reformat and reinstall all the software and the drivers etc. Curiosity, i lauched voice speech recognition and now Stefanie can Talk to her computer and give Ms. Dell Instructions It works in word, so imagine if i have to study i will be able to read outloud and my com will just jot it for me Imagine if Ms. Dell could talk back You Idiot! haha

But its pretty weird, as i have to speak slowly ( Bernice* it helps me to  talk slowly and its gosh irritating when it does not understand u ) Like you have to talk really really slowly. And if u had enough u can make sleep " Stop Listening" thats what i have to say

and im so outdated iGoogle is cool

I had a nice lunch yesterday

 

  2 apples and a sandwich

( apples courtesy of wolfson hall, Bread from Tesco and ham as well)

And from the post i got on thursday :

 

CNY card from dad, mom and younger bro. Gong Xi Fa Cai

I am going to miss the Reunion dinner Atmosphere, and guess what an exam on that day! MILE ( Reminds me of the slogan in prefects, Go the Extra Mile : Berkhidmat Sentiasa!!) Secretary Days, MISS IT SO MUCH.

ES told me that they are still using till now the report books which i designed during our year till now!! *surprised* I need to get a copy as i did not keep any

And talk about my SPM Examination Cert which i have not collected…  ( pai seh)

And Just for Laughs! ( From Gsk Medical Calendar in my room)

Do click to enlarge

Mayshi : Have a good time in ITALY!!! Enjoy your hols!

Bernice : Does your Dell com give you problems? mine does!

Windy

It seems the weather here, can blow you off your feet and overturn your umbrella the other way round.

Imagine, wind propulsion can actually be the new ENERGY SOURCE

Yesterday,

I spent like alot of hours in the SL from 11 am – 5.30 pm . About 2.45 p.m, then headed down to the Uni Health Service. Everything is alright as my self medication was good Lungs are Clear THANK GOODNESS.

Went to library pick up some books, and went back to the SL again.

Rotting, and learning about Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease

Then about 5.30 pm, went to Byres road to do a little grocery shopping milk and cornflakes for breakfast. and then went to meet PR and GL at M&S to pick up a cake for Msh then after that went to paperinos to make reservations

FOOOD THERE WAS SO GOOD had the carbonara – ( fattening)

and small portion is HUGE portion. PR said its small but to us its big and he is S’porean haha

The cake was not bad as well

Luckily today is a day off.. can relax abit

Routine?!

I just finished my mock exam today, consisted of dunno how many questions and i cant remember how many they were, just that i know was busy writing and flipping the pages. It was good* as in to have a mock exam as i could assess my knowledge of the block one and two material ( ie. Hierarchy of Systems and Anatomy) and not to mention Vocational Studies ( Autonomy, consent etc.). Slept at 10 pm the previous day, been having the flu ( cough cold chest pain + fever* i think, as i dont a thermometer with me) and then woke up about 7.15 to catch the 8.20 bus to uni. Went to the library and found a good place to sit, away from the crowd. It was a rather windy day today and not to mention cold. Studied till 12.00 flipping over mindmaps and notes and ate sandwich sneakily in the library. Wonder if was caught on cctv, nearing to 1.00 i went down to the cafeteria and saw my friend Hana from Slovakia and sat next to her. Ate an apple and then went to find the examination venue aka. Bute Hall Pretty Huge and COLD.

Saw GL, PR, and other friends waiting outside, chatted with them a bit, i wish i had better photographic memory i need gingko nuts!

240 students, 240 bags..

Anyway got settled down, and did the paper, messy handwriting, and not to mention the heart arteries and veins Reminded me of Form 5 stuff :S and why do ppl shake their legs during exams!! irritating ( seok, now i know how it is )

And groans : Tonight PBL to do..for tomorrow.

I think my life is too planned out, Its like wake up, prepare lunch, go for breakfast at the dining hall, go to uni, pbl, study landscape, gym go home at 4.10 pm

June Exam : 9 times 6 Pbls = 54 PBLS to revise + Vocational Studies

GRRR… Motivation Needed Desperately

SOS

Seeing the Doctor tomorrow and Attending Margaret’s birthday Party @ Papperinos ! Thats New!

I need to Find something new to do!

RAIN! :)

MJ Korean Version ! Nice dance moves

Missing You – John Waite 1984

 

* he looks quite good looking for the 1990’s!

Every time I think of you
I always catch my breath
And Im still standing here
And youre miles away
And Im wondering why you left
And theres a storm thats raging
Through my frozen heart tonight
I hear your name in certain circles
And it always makes me smile
I spend my time
Thinking about you
And its almost driving me wild
And theres a heart thats breaking
Down this long distance line tonight
I aint missing you at all
Since youve been gone
Away
I aint missing you
No matter
What I might say
Theres a message
In the wild
And Im sending you
This signal tonight
You dont know
How desperate Ive become
And it looks like Im losing this fight
In your world
I have no meaning
Though Im trying hard
To understand
And its my heart thats breaking
Down this long distance line tonight
I aint missing you at all
Since youve been gone
Away
I aint missing you
No matter
What my friends say
And theres a message that Im sending out
Like a telegraph to your soul
And if I cant bridge this distance
Stop this heartbreak overload
I aint missing you at all
Since youve been gone
Away
I aint missing you
No matter
What my friends say
I aint missing you
I aint missing you
I keep lying to myself
And theres a storm thats raging
Through my frozen heart tonight
I aint missing you at all
Since youve been gone
Away
I aint missing you
No matter
What my friends say
Aint missing you
I aint missing you
I aint missing you
I keep lying to myself
Aint missing you
I aint missing you
I aint missing you
I aint missing you
I aint missing you
I aint missing you
Aint missing you
Oh no
No matter what my friends might say
I aint missing you

( missing everyone, psycho myself)

In Remembrance of Cornflakes

Aug 5th – Jan 17th 2008

 

Cornflakes..

 

"Sorry to let you know that it is unfortunate that our kitten, Cornflakes, died last Thurs. It was tragic that we didn’t know that one of his legs was somewhat trapped in the automatic gate. When we rushed off in the morning, we didn’t realize that the automatic gate, on closing, had crushed the poor thing. In fact, Manikan was the one who found the cat when he came to take Papa’s car for service (Papa was in Hanoi) and he was very good to help us bury the cat later in the afternoon. "

SCREAMS~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

And why am i notified like TODAY ONLY?

 

LIFE IS SO UNFAIR

Patches and Cornflakes May You Rest in Peace Sniff*

Ginger & Streak s ( In PAWS) May you find a good home

Stripes You are the Luckiest !!!!!!!!!!!!