What About Now?

“What About Now”
Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?
Now that we’re here,
Now that we’ve come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it’s too late,
Baby, before it’s too late,
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?

Sleepless :)

Well the crazy week is over but it was hectic, busy but enjoyable learning the muscles of the upper limb and lower limb

Sleep schedule from from 12.30 am to 7am in the three days of preparation for the exam.

Am glad i can get back to normal routine now, and oh.. its back to the PBLS and VS. But im sure it will be good as well

It means i wont be seeing my friends from Group C as often!

The Exam was okay silly mistakes like pubic tubercle instead of symphysis!! A RGH.

Had a nice time with friends afterwards watching the Movie “ he’s just  not that into you” , it was so funny choosing the movie because i said shall we watch “ he is not into you” so many times LOL and was basically asking the guys what movie they want to watch!

Complicated movie, and the only logical word i remembered from it are you the exception.

 

One of the quotes from the movie :

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we’re told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.

I checked out the summary, because i did not understand the movie at all and it made me think more than my ANAtomy exam! LOL

Since the age of 5, Gigi (Ginnifer Goodwin) has been told that when men act like jerks, it means they like her.
Years later, Gigi is now struggling to find true love while shifting through men who are simply not interested. After her latest date, Conor (Kevin Connolly), has failed to call her, Gigi visits a bar he said he frequented in order to see him. There, she is approached by Alex (Justin Long), a friend of Conor’s who works at the bar. Gigi claims she is waiting for Connor, since she needs to return a dentist’s pen to him. However, Alex quickly sees through her lie, claiming Connor’s dentist is his father. Gigi admits that Connor is not expecting her, and explains her confusion over his lack of response. Alex tells her that Connor isn’t interested, and then takes it upon himself to explain the “signs” to Gigi.
Meanwhile, Connor, having just left his date with Gigi, calls his girlfriend Anna (Scarlett Johansson). Anna is shopping in the supermarket and runs into Ben (Bradley Cooper). He tells her to go before her in line, citing an indecision about gum as the reason. Anna tells Connor she has to go, and, as she is checking out, is awarded a cooler as a 1000th visitor gift. The two exchange numbers outside when Ben says he knows someone who can help Anna with her singing career. After a few moments of hesitation, Ben admits that he is married. The two part, and Ben walks over to a car and gets in. Neil (Ben Affleck) then asks Ben what that was about.
When Neil returns home, he is greeted by his girlfriend of seven years, Beth (Jennifer Aniston). She announces that her younger sister is getting married. Neil, who is in the kitchen making tea, tells Beth that he doesn’t believe in marriage. Beth, who desperately wants to get married to Neil, doesn’t understand why he dislikes the idea so much.
Ben meets his wife Janine (Jennifer Connelly) back at their new townhouse, currently being renovated.
Gigi, excited about the tips Alex gave her, eagerly shares them with her coworkers, Janine and Beth. Gigi explains that if he’s interested, he’ll make the first move, and if he’s not, he won’t. When she claims that there are exceptions, but that the majority are not, she unintentionally implies that Neil will never marry Beth, since they have been together for 7 years and they haven’t married yet.
Beth confronts Neil when she goes home, saying she can’t deal with it anymore. When Neil continues to refuse to get married, the two break up.

Super complicated lor.. :S lol. So is he’s just not that nto you or not? Nahhhh

I was consulted by 60 future doctors and i so know how to use a Metered Dose Inhaler Fun when u are a patient

WIll probably write more soon! I am panda eyed… and i need my beauty SLEEP and need to start on my family project… :S

Hugs..

Rough patches

I think i just had a rough patch in my life a few days back, but am okay now thankfully.

Thankyou to my friends who have been there for me! Love you guys/gals alot!

Will write more soon.

Its nearing the end of SSM, and there is an ANATOMY test coming up!

HUGS!

Changes and Decisions

I think i made the decision i am happy with it, i did something courageous, and i think i blew it. I am just completely messed up right now.

I just need someone to hear me out, scold me, say i am stupid for doing what i did.

I mean seriously, i just need someone to talk to right now.

I am nervous scared, insecure what i did

I should be focused, stop thinking of unnecessary things which are distracting me, I need to know what is the right path Lord.

I was just in denial now, thinking..

Why are DECISIONS SO HARD TO MAKE?

and when i am courageous to stand up and say something, i get slapped in the face.

I need to be patient, tolerant………… stop dreaming..

ARGH!

Good and Bad things

I am just a little stressed out, and a bit muddled with everything going on around me, inside me and well basically i just need to do things one step at a time

Well, i am glad i got my new phone finally, it has been a long wait for a new techno toy to appear in my hands. And i am glad and thankful that i managed to get the job offer for Phleb and warden offer as well.

However , i will only be able to start my Phleb job in september as i cant do a contract job as i will be going home in the summer. And i am not sure about moving out to a new accomodation altogether. Am still thinking of what to do, asking God for guidance and which is the best path for me.

I am just glad some of my friendships are getting better with people i have misjudged and the person i love and falling for. I mean i am just glad i  let go and let God work his miracles and i am thankful for that.

Just tell me when things are actually going to worsen or be bad, i just cant handle a BIG BOMB on my lap..

I am glad, i went for confession on Thursday night, so many hurts and unforgiveness which i did not realise was locked up within me. And i feel lighter as a burden has been lifted off my shoulders. And i now my doggy is now in dog heaven… Just trying to get over my moping and dealing with death by putting on a brave face.

You were cuter than this.

I wish i had more photos of my dog, when he was growing up i am sad i took him for granted, it has been 13 years since i know you…Tubby. I chose the name for you, i bathed you, looked after you, fed you, took you for walks, neglected you sometimes which i should not have, i miss you when you wag your tail, i miss grooming you, you have a right floppy ear. i just miss you! and i wish i was there when u gave ur last breath

What happens if i am a doctor (which i am going to be) and can’t save the person i LOVE? But the fact is you cant save everyoen cant you?

I have been playing badminton regularly now every saturday morning which is fun actually and not to mention the smashes haha, and waking up the next day with SORE muscles.

I am freaking out that there might not be enough time to revise YEAR 2 stuff, i mean this SSM – Anatomy, i thought there would be more time but actually there isnt, and its getting on my nerves and there is a family project write up to do as well, If there is anything i need now is more time in a day.

Valentines day, well i would say its just a day where we declare our love for people we love.. it is Happy Friendship Day. But actually everyday is Valentine’s Day, and i miss the high school days where we buy gifts for each other and that is so fun.

Love, what is Love, Gods Love is Amazing and it conquers all..

I am just waiting for that special someone, whoever he is who might come along, catch my eye, be my friend, be part of my life, i will wait be patient and wait.. for the moment to come.

The person you are looking for may be just under your nose, or just next to you

 

Tubby RIP 12 Feb 2009

I was just checking my email when i saw this title : Tubby, from my mum

I thought it could not be anything bad, but when i opened it, my heart skipped a beat.

It is with alot of sadness to tell you that Tubby died today.

I am just too filled with emotions now, i wish i was there when he died, i wish i could be at two places at once argh. But at least he passed away peacefully near the bronze ducks and the boy reading a book statue in the garden outside the porch.

My dog died of a cancerous tumour on his chest….

Its been 13 years, i have known him, the cutest puppy ever and the most loving and adorable dog i ever had, so much memories are flooding back to me now. I am sorry when i did not treat you right..as they all say A dog is a man’s best friend.

I named you after reading a story from Enid Blyton book when i was about 7years old. I regret not taking enough pictures of you and am sorry when i neglected you. But you were always forgiving..

I never regretted the decision when i picked u up by the roadside in Cameron Highlands, with you sister Candy, and adopted you.

I am going to miss you, and you will be deeply remembered. May you rest in peace..

It will be so weird, being back home in the summer.. without you around and i will visit your grave, and near to Patches ( kitten) who passed away.

Man, i feel like crying now…

Snow Pictures…

The snow is going away.. noooo..

My Friends and Snowpersons

Presenting RED HOT Mrs,Snow person.

I have found the love of my life at last : SNOW

Haha..

Its Snowing!!!

The weekend has passed so fast this time i did not spend my weekend in the library but at home.

Made mee hoon last night Off the cuff recipe which was suppose to be for yesterday’s get together with friends but it was cancelled because not many people could attend.

 

It was nice change, but i did not get as much work done as i wanted to. argh.

Its going to be a week of snow and on tuesday its going to be heavy snow

Snow is pretty… and cold..

I love snow..   and it seems like the best time to stay in bed, wrapped up, eating chocolate and staring outside the window..

and i built my first SNOW MAN or SNOW PERSON TODAY

Presenting Mr & Mrs Johnson … Great teamwork with GL,GG, PR, YL, SM and me ahha..

and i am bad at playing any game consoles ie. WII and XBOX

and I begin dissection of the Lower limb tomorrow

Early morning

LOL, that was the first thing which came to mind, Early morning. Half awake, did some laundry and feeling like i want to crawl back to bed and sleep somemore. I think am going to sleep early tonight.

Woke up to do laundry.. LOL, that is what i woke up for. I like things being clean. Maybe am a clean freak LOL

And its snowing…. YIPPEE

This weekend is going to be busy and a whole loads of fun, there is dinner tonight at GL place, and badminton today.

Will write more soooooooooooooon

XOXO

Internet deprived :(

Am feeling so internet deprived as the internet is not working back home. But i have come up with some drafts to be posted soon once the internet works hopefully
Dissections have been great but i just need to spend more time on memorizing the muscles,insertion and etc of the upper limb. which is a bit of a pain, btu slowly does it and hope i have enough time :S
and just come to realise its Valentine’s Day next weekend ( In my words it is called Friendship Day LOL or sadness for the single people )

So do you guys/girls have special plans for the special someone?
I do, but doubt i have the courage to do anything..

I will now try to  stray away from using hte internet in the libary and only when i really need to So it will be back to the old of just using books and writing and studying and prob. bring my laptop to do PBL in the weekends or use one of the computers no more hogging for me

And i just looked outside : I think its snowing again YIPPEE