Its getting closer, to close for comfort for Exams & PEE

had to blog, so much stuff inside me if i kept in stefanie will go pop.

 

Time waits for no man ( WOMAN)

I have broken down my remaining hours, till by arrival in Bute Hall/Randolf Hall into hours.. in a time table spread on one sheet..

My library work area..

This is crazy. but progressive.. Late hours of the night and we hours of the morning

 

Nervous Breakdown … Almost!

Its so soon, exams are on tuesday, almost had a nervous breakdown but thanks to my consciousness, i took out my Bible, and found a lovely prayer by St Ignatius of Loyola

O Lord Give me the grace so that all my intentions, all my actions and all my operations may be directed solely to the praise and service of your Divine Majesty…

I had to read it a few times to calm my self down.

Bad Luck. Fool

After the gym, while looking at flash cards while exercising on the cross ramp machine

I did do a silly thing today = fool, my washing clothes detergent bottle was not closed properly, ( which i did not know off), and on my way down to the laundry room and in front of the washing machine, looked and saw. !@$#%^ my whole laundry back was soaked with the liquid. Furiously stupid mediocre act!! So i had to use 3 whole machines for one pile of clothes which is oversoaped ( im letting out all my rage due to me on my blog!)

On my computer, realised the audio was not working, sound card problem ! @#%$^&* ( actually the symbols dont mean any bad words maybe its EEEEEEEEAAAA or something like tat ) This symptom ( medically speaking which my dear friend CK had also caused his com to have a blue screen. talk about computer transmitter disease that leads to cyanosis of the LCD screen? GOSH.

Reformating after exam, Fingers cross of no cyanosis of LCD screen before tuesday!

Praying Hard.

P.E.E.

What are you going to do after exams?” AL

I had not thought about it yet, dead seriously, well i will think maybe later but not just yet. there is a list at the back of my mind somewhere.. going to help AL with her OSCE ( be her patient) ahha and maybe pack as i wont be staying at WXH next term.

Summer, somehow im dreading it and looking forward to it ( Post Exam Emotions) which is PEE for short.

And at the bus stop on friday waiting for the bus i saw :

Is this a sign of Post Traumatic Stress Due to Exams / or PEE

Gosh, i wish my exams were over now, so much free time lah.. this person >.<, on the grass somemore, sleeping wor..

The Sun is great to express our _______________________ (YTIDUN)

 

Girl Interrupted No More

Studying block 4.4 Contraception, Just realised the same scenario had exactly the same name as my neighbour ( hint: where weird noises happen in the middle of the night…) amazingly what a coincidence, luckily she has moveout or gone home. so no more interruptions.

Blogs

I have read so many new posts on blogs, esp what women want, and have some things to reply, so await my late / belated reply soon. KC! and Ern Sheong

And Nuffnang wild competition

Cam-posing, Boredom

Practically Bored… Panda Eyed!! Fringe which i cut a few weeks ago has grown so fast, and just realised i could smile

Baby Pool

And yes, some people have a good splashing time not in the swimming pool, but a inflatable pool outside B block, and yes we do have swimsuit fashion parade at dinner that day.

And one of the plot was to Pop the pool haha

 

And the Question is?

Should I skip PBL on Monday? ( Yes, classes run right up to exam time, med life - no life - but life long learning which is till exams)

 

And i miss my mum and family at home, where mum will cook my favourite food during exams and have a huuug once in a while when she comes into my room when i s tudy..

SPM was tedious, A levels was OMG, but i made it, First Year Med ( Do you best and God Will do the rest = My Motivation)

And Good luck to everyone !!

And Back to revision..

!Grounded!Study Back

Grounded Disciplinary Declaration:

effective 12 am 19 May 2008 –> 4.30 pm June 3rd

i hereby Stefanie will not go online for more than 30minutes, watch movies online and will abstain from watching smallville after 12 am tonight.

She will work hard and study smart till June 3rd 2008.

Till then not so much blogging and scrabbling.

Setting priorities Right

BSB and Med School sure does mix LOL

 

 Signing out Enjoy the video

 

Here i go again

Was very amused lol after reading KC blog early in the morning in the library. Gosh and im so sleepy now, and think that the germs* is going to get the better of me. Was staring at the ceiling at 12 am yes, after looking at my timetable which says 3 weeks to exam. MUST NOT PANIC!

Today no classes, but a study group on PBL 4.3 and 4.4

Stefanie must stop watching SMALLVILLE ONLINE!

Anyway back to the music ( which im using my ipod for this)

The Rules:

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.

Let’s GO!!!

1. How are you feeling today?
Bahler: She’s Out of my Life

Actually this is a classical music which i had in my music player which helps me study lol, im feeling sleepy and wishy washy and wish i did not have to wake up early today. I like the flute music in it ahha. Its a peaceful song and i think i should listen to the lyrics for this song lol.

2. Will you get far in life?

Ever Ever After: Carrie Underwood

Yes! ever ever after each challenge in my life and my fairytales coming true! Believing is the key! This was the OST for Enchanted ( the movie i was meant to watch with CK and his family but did not manage too on his burfday). ” it may be only a wish away” i wish for so many things that i want to come true my friends, my family, everything that hurts the most, this song gives me hope to believe in everything and have faith.

“the world can be yours if you let your heart..” ” a brand new begining” After med school, a life long journey of learning and being the best i can be. Dreams may you come true and i will work hard for it!
3. What’s your best friend’s theme song?

The Phantom of the Opera: RIchard Clayderman

Reminds me of MayShi, who was really good at piano and could play it on piano after listening to the songs! Miss you!!

Haha! One of Kevs favourite lol who i remember singing all the time in school!!! LOL. See you soon! LOL

4. What is the story of your life?

Drowning in your Love: Backstreet Boys

Hm, my love story, basically i’ve drown many times in love, but im loving it, this is a beautiful song. Im glad i met you, finding the person i really love most and a wish that i would want to spend with someone i love most for the rest of my life. You picked me up when i fell, you were always there by my side. wo ai ni.. sniff*

I really hope the future goes well for us!
5. What was high school like?
How Far We’ve Come: Matchbox Twenty

Well, high school was amazing! and this song so does fit it! This is like on the way to school this song, “We are going to find out Let see how far we have come” in our lives, after highschool, most of us parted our ways to different colleges, and our different roads our lives. Mayshi, Jun Ai Future Docs, Kevin and Nimalan Future lawyer so many friends pursuing their dreams and their lifes. Miss all of you back in high school.

And Going the Extra Mile ( Let’s See how far we have come) i miss prefects! oops next song d..
6. How can you get ahead with life?
Where is the Love: Black Eyed Peas

Don’t judge and you will not be judged, dont criticise and be who you are. Love others as others love you and love your enemies, look for the good in people and trust that they have qualities to admire and do not judge books by the cover. I think this is important as a future doctor and important for me to accomplish this values. Love is what makes the world go round. ” Whats wrong with the world we live in” i think that what ever happens war etc and all, and esp the previous tragedy in Burma, Andrew yap who passed away, I find that there is love that binds us together and makes us steadfast in our beliefs!

This song was played at a Confirmation Camp, and it reflected the whole world.
7. What’s the best thing about your friends?

I’ll Be the One: Backstreet Boys

I am a BSB Fan! lol well i can relate that im proud of having close friends who are always there for me, there always there for me ” helping hand to make it right”, and i want to be the one, my friends, you can always come to me when you need any help, anything and i will help you in thie best way i can. My Friends are my LIFE!

8. Describe your grandparents.

Hot Street: Michael Jackson

Gosh, i dont think this song is appropriate but oh well, sadly to say i was young when both grandparents passed away. My Grandpa was a tap dancer acc. to my mum :). so i can imagine him dancing like Michael jackson lol
9. How’s your life going?

Holding on for you: Liberty X

“Minutes turn to hours, time keeps marching on, im still here alone still waiting, million miles away, temptation all around.. im holding on for you”

I think my songs in my ipod are all emo LOL. I make believe that you are here with me, well i can relate to everything that happened that hurt in my life, and im holding on for everyone who means so much in my life, my parents, my family, my friends, i will be back in june 19th! Im not going to fall into any temptation, being strong doing what is right and studying hard and God in my life. Importance of faith!

10. What will be played at my funeral?
Bleed it out: Kabulos

OKIE. this is the weirdest song ahha. im not going to bleed it out at my funeral and so would not want this played lol. =.=

11. Will you have a happy life?

Circle of Life: Ronan Keating ( From Lion King)

” It is the wheel of fortune, it is the leap of faith to find our place on the path unwinding”

I hope so, to me life is like a number 8, there is the curves and bends and there is a part in the middle which converges and you have to choose which path you have to take and sometimes you are back to square one. I love ronan keating songs! I can predict the future , but there will be happy moments, sad and challenging moments. Its a circle of life, live life to the fullest and be who you want to be! “Some of us fall by the way side and some of us soar to the stars and some have to live with the scars” never lose hope! This is a great song!!

12. What do your friends really think of you?

Far Away: Nickelback

Yes, physically im far away. lol a million miles away from home. Im sorry guys and girls im far away and not at back home with you all back home. When i’m back lets go yum cha!! like yi ting says lol.

” Last chance, for one last dance”

This reminds me of prom night 2005, i wished i danced with all my friends, wished i have known those i dont know a little bit more better before our ways parted. 

So far away…
13. How can you make yourself happy?

Call me when you’re sober: Evanescence

Okay, lol ( stefanie shakes her ipod vigorously!) ahah i dont mind if people call me when they are sober lol, i need to help them get home if they had to much alcohol lol. and definitely drinking does not make me happy lol. Drink Ribena its good and full of vit C! I make myself happy by switching this song to the next one lol.

14. What should you do with your life?

Bubbly: Colbie Caillat

” You make me smile..”

OMG, my favourite song. I want to be bubbly lol. Hm, i want to be a doctor yes, and getting in to med school was one of the hardest things in my life, but i want to care for people, this song is my personality! I want to treasure my life, make the best of it, learn from mistakes and learn to move on and let go.

“Wherever wherever wherever you go…”
15. Will you ever have children?

Who Am I: Casting Crowns

“I am the flower quickly fading..still you here me when im calling, Lord you catch me when im falling and you tell me who I am”

I cant answer this question because, it depends on alot of things*, but i would like to have maybe 2 girls and 2 boys lol Juggling between time for family and work etc in the future. Gosh im scared!

16. What does your mom think of you?

Speed Demon: Michael Jackson

Gosh, well im not a racer haha, and maybe i guess it will be a shout from my mum to slow down when i drive lol. but i cant relate what my mum will think of me in relation to song. ahha. Bummerz. seriously going to change songs on my ipod now!!!! * this shows that stefanie has a really wide range of music in her ipod from techno to hip hop to soppy and to classical.
17. What is your deep, dark secret?

Eternal Flame: Bangles

Well, my deep dark secret, nooo not telling on this blog held to secrecy! So may secrets, well this song is interesting, my secrets my eternal flame lol never going to be put out or be broken Oh well better luck next time.
18. What is your enemy’s theme song?
Praying for a friend: Casting Crowns

I really hope this is my enemy’s theme song

” Lord i lift my friend to you”

I think this song speaks for itself and for me. I pray  for all my enemies and my friends, those i have hurt due to love and those i had grudges on.
19. Whats your personality like?
Animal Song: Savage Garden

Bring out the animal in you, I was put forward a question once, what animal would you like to be? i want to be a squirrel lol and eat nuts. I want to live ! definitely not like an animal la all wild and that lol.

“Animals like children tell truths they never lie”

and i want to tell the truth!

20. What will be played at your wedding?

What if i said: Faith Hill and Tim Mc Graw

What if I told you, what if I said,
That I love you.
How would you feel, what would you think,
What would we do.
Do we dare to cross that line
Between your heart and mine,
Or would I lose a friend
Or find a love that would never end.
What if I said . . .

YES! perfect song! well this song i dedicated to CK about a year ago. You deserve the best from me!!

I really want this song to be played at my wedding!

What if I told you, what if I said,
That I love you.
How would you feel, what would you think,
What would we do .

I am tagging:

May Shi

Bernice

Seok Mei

Chu Jie

Jacqueline

and what do women want? LOL

Preps.

Gosh, i cannot believe the week just passed like that, although it was a hectic week full of SL-ing, Studying and Mugging, and you come down to the worst fear that nothing is going in! How depressing is that, i think i have to empty my brain and  refill it with all the 50 PBLS that i have to cover and VS notes and FRS sessions. Gosh!

I have found a nice thing online better then websufing and youtubing which is  the scrabble game on facebook, well its quite good to play as it does not have a time limit etc and you can take days to play and finish the game. Oh well. A point of relaxation in the midst of studying.

I think that the library the main university library is the better place for studying than the SL as it is more conducive so to speak. On the 10th floor of the library the Theology floor, it has pretty nice carrels and computers where students can work from Plus it is super quiet compared to the SL where u here ppl chit chatting etc etc and scanning noises from the scanner.

Ah, early weekends and late nights , and i pray i dont get sick. Today i had a lecture regarding the exam in june, and the part about resitting, i just hope i dont have too! i want a good holiday + summer back home !!! Gosh, stress is building up and i can relate that to the fight and flight response. GAS system. GRRRRR!

Rushing through dinners to catch the 6.45 pm bus to the SL everynight, for my room is not a good place to study.

Alas/YAY monday is a holiday! but it is a study day, so little time, just one more month!

Summary sheets and flash cards

Ps. This is the fastest post i have ever typed in my life!

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-Gone-

” your friend andrew passed away”

Coldness pierced my heart, and i just stopped whatever i was doing

I stopped, just staring into emptiness, how can that be

With Andrew passing, i feel there is a sense of closeness between all of us, SMKDJian alike, friend or foe, comrade or enemy.

I noticed Andrew ( based on my memory) that he was one of the in crowd people hanging with a really close bunch of friends. Mainly, most people i noticed when i was on prefect duty mainly at the school canteen, i wished i knew friends other then my close friends better now, i mean i regret.

Why is death so argh.

But, Andrew, if you were here

It snowed heavily for you that day you went to heaven

and the sun rose its highest and melted the snow away

Eternal Rest grant onto Andrew, May your perpetual light shine on him always

and why am i studying about diabetes insipidus and head injury now?!

My Current PBL scenario:

Frank Jackson, a 25 year old plumber is admitted to the Neurosurgical Unit after sustaining a basal skull fracture in an road traffic accident……

In Memory Of Andrew Yap R.I.P 18/12/1988 - 6/4/2008

His vitals were stable a few days ago, but then…

May You Rest In Peace, I wish i had known you better or even known you back then in secondary school

Why cant time stop now please!?

Absolve, we beseech Thee, O Lord,
the soul of Thy servant Andrew

from every bond of sin,
that being raised in the glory of the resurrection,
he may be refreshed among the Saints and Elect.
Eternal rest grant on Andrew Yap , O Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon him

May he rest in peace.

Bless his family and friends in this time of need, and shower your mercy and blessings on us.

Amen.

Dedicated to friends, family of Andrew Yap, everyone who is down and sad at the moment.

 

Angel - Sarah McLachlan

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there’s always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there’s vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don’t make no difference
escaping one last time
it’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

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We pray for Andrew Yap

Dear All, pls join me in prayer as you read this

Andrew Yap, SMKDJ, Graduation Year 2005

“Andrew Yap from DJ is in ICU. He fell and hit his head and his brain shifted. He’s still unconscious even after the surgery. Docs say he’s not recovering, please pray for him.”

- Ee Fei

In the name of the Father, the son and the Holy Spirit

Dear Lord,

Omnipotent and eternal God, the everlasting Salvation of those who believe, hear us on behalf of Thy sick servant, Andrew Yap, for whom we beg the aid of Thy pitying mercy, that, with his bodily health restored, May he be healed by the Holy Spirit and May You Shower Him with your utmost love and mercy. May he wake up from his surgery as he has not waken up since then.

Jesus, Your array of miracles, A true manifestation of Your Divinity, Draws the admiration of searching souls. Never let it be said, “Miracles do not exist!”. You are the living example of such actions. Bless us with the faith to always believe, To affirm the Supreme Power of Your miracles, Be they of a physical or spiritual nature. We believe that our friend Andrew will wake up and be healed by your healing hand.

In your most precious name, Christ Our Lord 

Amen.

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Life is precious and it is one of the simplest things we take for granted each day

Who Am I

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.
Not because of who I am.
But because of what you’ve done.
Not because of what I’ve done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I’m calling,
Lord you catch me when I’m falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.
Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I’ve done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I’m calling,
Lord you catch me when I’m falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
Not because of who I am.
But because of what you’ve done.
Not because of what I’ve done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I’m calling,
Lord you catch me when I’m falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
‘Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.