Happy..

I felt this song touched my heart, so what if it hurts me, i just got to move on..

Happy – Leona Lewis

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free
I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah
Holding on tightly
Just can’t let go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear
But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
Different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy
Oh, happy
Oh
So when it turns that I can see???
This rope??
Victim??
Don’t say anything
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

21

When you are 21, you know when it has begun

You need to grow wiser than before

 

When you are 21, you need to know to stand on your  own two feet

and not be a prick

 

When you are 21, you need to make better decisions,

and know the better

 

When you are 21, you learn more about yourself,

and learn the right from wrong.

 

When you are 21, you have one whole year ahead,

make it count

Rainbows..

two days in a row! and rainbows have been spotted!

happy

Cloudy with a chance of Anatomy

Anatomy SSC today was – omg – so much info – and – oh dear – cant remember my block 10 – how bad is that! Ah, need to study ( ONE WORD)

But i want to do other things too!

And as predicted, fresher’s week was sunny, start of term – weather is rainy!

Its time for a change too!!

Home

I am missing home, but having a FLAT, with people i love! is amazing it is no longer a flat but a HOME.

I have been busy – making my room deco BLUE, making the flat cosy, homey, lovely etc

Cooking and will bake something soon as well!!

Lovin’ it!

Will upload pics sooN!!

 

MWAH to all!

Back to Scotland Aye.

It could be describe as insane and irresponsible, when you think that you know it all sometimes.
Why am I not informed about little things which can be actually a big thing to me?

I just cant understand you. We have been over this before. At least have some consideration to tell me that you are better now?

_______

Swamped!

I just realised i do not know much of Scotland History – so i think its best for me to find out about the clans and etc

I have to make a sweet potato pie and banana cake the next few weeks or so.. to finish the ingredients i got. Or maybe try out making the perfect cheesecake and one more thing to add is go to Secret Recipe – and try that butterscotch pecan cake again LOL.

Shopping as well – it is hard working in a mall when you have a gut feeling that you know somewhere deep down you might be a shopaholic.

Gym + Exercise – i guess i havent been doing so GOSH better lose the weight back there.. or maybe start a week before?

And i still havent or not yet had the taste of SAMBAL or nasilemak YET. OMG i guess i can admit i save the best things for last.

2 more work assignments, read more books , hang out with friends till it is time to go back ..

And the the question,raking through my mind right now is :

In 3 years im going to have a MBCHB , but i still cant make decisions GASP

Stuff not to leave hanging : my sketch of the cute baby, one more watercolour pice to do!

And stop goggling at the new MJ OPUS and plan my pre-21st-bday bash in MSIA.. LOL

Blood is definitely thicker than water

Presenting the Hibiscus which i earned RM20 for

I am glad i managed to read a couple more books – Ps. I love you and If you can see me now by Cecelia Ahern. Those two books are AMAZING and WOW.

Read also, Sophie and the Rising Sun – intereting read as well.

Planning to read next : Attica, Brisingr ( Hopefully the first two books of the Trilogy Series first so i can remember what happened!) and the Host

And i plan to get “ Thank you for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern”!!

Artistic Challenge #3 – Flowers ( A bunch of them this time) – i will get the scientific name for them soon.

I am thrilled i got my new set of paints, brushes and sketch book! So i can bring them back to glasgow!!

OMG, its going to be the end of summer hols soon!!

And there are still so many things i want to do…

Freedom ( or not)

It has been a long while since my blog post when it comes to mind on what i wanna write about – the computer is not infront of me and then i forget

been busy the last few weeks! And am really glad Jun Ai poster is done it was fun learning something new and rekindling the nostalgic – adobe illustrator .

Started work not long ago at OU, but it is not a bad job actually. I have read more books now, then  when i am back in uni! From the monk who sold his ferrari, and Oscar wilde – short fiction It is amazing those two books. During the lunch break, i recently when to MPH to get a book by Stephenie Meyer – The Host Cant wait to read that book!! Will read it SOON!

It sometimes takes me awhile ( make that a long time) to tell the person – what i am actually feeling – like irritated, annoyed with their actions etc. But sometimes, it is better that they do not know about it? But i am glad some friends knows the REAL me.

A bookworm family. I can’t deny that i have a deep passion for books ( of any kind). And it so does run in the family from my parents to me and to my youngest BROTHER! I helped my brother cleaned his “not in order – messy – dusty – bookshelves” stacked with alot of books, comics, magazines. OMG, it was a dust heap! Took almost the whole day. I now know where to get my hands on books if my bookshelf is out of books to read not to mention it is stacked too!

One more month –> Glasgow!!

Sunday..

Decided to get back to what i use to love to do- poetry writing..( a song writer perhaps ..)

1. Moving on

I just realised i don’t know you

From the days we had

the time we shared

All i know now, is that you are gone

 

Where are you?

You’re the same but your heart isnt anymore

Moving on from long ago

I have learnt to let you go

 

I am moving on

The doors are open

I am leaving you once and for all.

A farewell, a solemn goodbye.

 

All i need now is a person who can compose music LOL.

Clubbing..

Yes, I hereby declare myself as a person who has finally stepped into a club!

Well, what was your first experience like?

I basically thought, wow,  nice smoky effect, lights and music. It got really packed starting about 12 am. And YES I was happy they played MJ SONGS! Nice remixes by the DJS

Drinks were rather expensive. 13 bucks for mineral water!!

Music was very loud

Dancing was great

I am extremely surprised i did enjoy myself and we all actually can DANCE!